As the end of January approaches I find myself sinking deeper and deeper into a state of disbelief. If you’re a regular reader of my blog you’ll know that my boys are my life’s passion. They took their time finding their way to us but boy, was it worth the wait. They are two of the most kind hearted and compassionate boys you will ever meet. I have had the privilege of being able to stay home with them and be a full time mum for the past 6 years. It’s a role I was born to do and one that would not have been possible without the undying support of my husband. You rock. Truly.
So what’s the point of this post you may ask. I guess it’s a beginning and an ending of sorts. My boys are about to start school for the first time and I’ll be facing the task of picking up where I left off 6 years ago. You see I’m not the same person I was. I’ve had to readjust to a new role, a new normal, a new me. It’s a me I thought would never be. The me waking up to feed a million times a night, the me teaching them how to eat on their own, the me that took them to mother’s group once a week, the me that went to the park on a daily basis, the me that heard their first word, felt their first tooth, saw their first step. For anyone who has struggled to conceive or just can’t believe they are finally a parent you will know what I mean when I say I feel like the luckiest mum in the world.
And now its the end of a chapter and the beginning of a new one. As I look at them in their school uniforms and big bulky school shoes I feel so incredibly sad and so ecstatic at the same time. Where has the time gone? It truly feels like yesterday I was lying on the couch unable to move and rubbing my tummy wondering what these two miracles inside me would look like. Well now I know – they look just like their mummy and daddy and just like us they are ready to conquer the world together.
So Ari and Alexi, as you go forth into this big new world just know how spectacular you are. Know you can do anything your hearts desire. I will always be with you even if I’m not there. You are truly the air I breathe. Love always, your mum. X